The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth…

Christmas to me has always been the best time of the year…
especially since I started working. It has so far been the longest holiday in a year that I take…so shiok…:)
I get to go home (Johor), see my parents…be with the whole
gang…

This year…a lot of things has happen to my family and me…
good and bad…mostly bad…for some problems…there were
solutions…mostly long term ones…but for ther others…I don’t know what to do anymore…it is hard…I have given up…letting it take it’s course…

Anyway…there were many times in my life when I was with my parents, I told them…"remember, don’t die without me…we die together…wait for me"…laughingly they promised they won’t …I never forgot that promise…I was about 10 years old then…

But one of them broke that promise made to me…Even God could not fulfill the promise made by a father to her daughter…not ALL that GREAT is He…the day God decided to take my dad away…is the day I lost someone in my life who loved me no matter what…who put up with my nonsense…who knows to take what is good that I’ve said and done…and let the bad stuff slide…but kena alsolah I sometimes…not all bad stuff can be ignored…
well…some might say he had no choice…he was your dad…it was his duty to love you…I beg to differ…he had many choices my dad…all of us did…but we chose to be together…to be a family…no matter what…

In my whole life…despite having problems in my family…my mind and heart always found consolation in knowing that my mom and dad will always be there…
But now…that is not the case anymore…it is so hard…when you have to put a straight face, smile or show you are happy especially when you know someone you love needs to see that, "Hey…everything is ok…We will be alright"…when in fact…you are not happy…when in fact….you just want to go
somewhere and cry your heart out…some would say…"that is part and parcel of being an adult"…BSlah…I believe my brothers and me…became "adults" quite early in life…and what is the big deal anyway…sometimes I see…children are able to handle situations better than some adults…

Anyway…God was not finished with my family yet…few months later he took my godma away from us…the Santa Rina of the family…when she was staying in Singapore…me and my mom would go visit her…we would come back with loads
of presents…all for the families in Malaysia…for us to distribute…she always had a smile for you…then when she got older…we ask her to come stay with us…she said yes…she was always very satisfied…an addition we will always love…

Well Christmas will still be Christmas…where families will still get together…children and adults alike will be happy…but for my family from this year onwards…it will be with 2 hugs less…

Well guess what…I joined a fitness club…ahahhhaha…never expected myself to do that…find it ridiculous…why…there is a very green and lovely place to jog…walk or whatever you want to do 5 minutes from my house…Taman Rakyat, is what it’s called to the “People of Andalas”…however…me being me…lazy and "so bloody hard to get up in the morning" type of person…never could do the morning thingy…unless forced, dragged by the ears or literally pulled out of bed…can’t help it ok…try sleeping on a firm yet "kind to the back" mattress,  fluffy yet not too soft pillows embracing your head, with your patchwork comforter sewed by your mother some more and the fan full blast…how the heavens do you get up!…now THAT would be sinful…wouldn’t it…But then being 28+…:D…I am 28+ you know…oklah…lets round it up…29 then (%$%@)…age…I laugh in the face of age…hahaha…..hmmph…until I could feel the fat taking a toll on my aged body…seriously…my back and feet hurt when I stand too long…I used to be able to stand for hours on end…but now…give me 15 minutes and I am a goner…okkkk…unless I am shopping or going jalan-jalan…too many distractions to help me forget my back and feet…:D…but other than that…so teruk ok…

Ok back to my fitness club…I officially joined Fitness First on the 14^th of November 2005…yippee!!!…until I was weighed!…shocking, dumbfounded…soooo true…arrrggghhhhhh…I have got to loose 7.32kgs…by the way…urmmm…you got to kinda read that backwards…arrrrggghhhhhhh…Well my contract is for 1 year…lets see how it goes…don’t want any sudden moves…want it ALL to go gradually… can’t tahan to buy new clothes…it’s not just the money,….your patience goes as well, when you keep trying and trying and nothing fits…hmmm….really want to fit in my old dresses again…still keeping them…after ALL this time…HOPE LIVES ON…hehehe…and all this is thanks to my friend and gym partner…ahem..ahem…by the way…she is single and very much available…why she needs to go to the gym…I will never understand until the day I mati…to me she looks great already…so if you would like get to know her, please send me an email…but please note that the “filter “ process is very stringent…one tip…make sure you are between 30 to 35 years of age…very particular….VERY…:D…

Oh another thing…this is my official launch of my blog…hehehe…some would say…at bloody last…:D…Fayevil signing off…